March 26 2018

Hi, my name is Tristen. I am 23 and living in Hamilton Ontario now for school. I am done in April. My mom is flying down with a friend to drive me back to Saskatchewan. They don't trust me to do it alone. I mean I don't either.
I'm trying to think how I can handle a friendship thing. It's a pain.
She cares so much, it shouldn't be an issue. But it made her look at something and see it as something else entirely. Now my family is scared for me.
I'm depressed and anxious. But I am not suicidal, at least not now.
I don't know anymore. 

One friend

I have one friend I talk with and hang out with. She's out of town. Aside from work I do nothing. Ugh.

Too much coffee

I'm so tired that I'm listening to kesha, but got too much coffee in me to sleep.

None of this makes sense.

Useless

Ever just have that one feeling you can never shake? Well mine is constantly feeling useless. Fun times.

Getting better

I have a job now, and a fan for my room. Things are looking up. Well, they should be. I still have so much to do.

1. Cancel tv 

2. Sign up for classes

3. Settle car claim

4. Pay off credit 

5. Get a doctor in city.

Don't grow up. It's hell.

God

I hate having times where I'm alone with my thoughts and no distractions. I can't stand it.

Failing

I'm failing my classes, so like any rational adult I'm giving up on that. Just trying to focus on the fact that I got a new job and am getting a roommate. Anything to keep my head on straight. Or on at all.